just when and then

just when you think you've got your system down. just when you think you've grown up enough and figured it out enough. just when your children are showing signs of self-sufficiencies. just when the plans you have been waiting on fall into place AND THEN out of place again...
just then. it's time again to start from scratches and scraps. time to renegotiate the terms of the existence you had come to rely on so feebly for that wee moment that seemed so secure...
this is where we are. just between the just when and the just then. mental blocks and mental purges. mental blank slate if you will knowing that all opportunity is open really - just a matter of taking the first steps. when baby steps turn then to giant leaps of faith....