when god dies - spiritual musing of a five yr. old
"when god dies, i'm gonna be queen of the world"
and why not little one - you are young enough that it is still possible. i shall not break that bubble... i will not tell you different.
"mother earth doesn't take things away from us right? ... but maybe mother earth accepts things... like maybe when i die, i'll be mother earth... and i won't steal things. but if some gives me something i will..."
yes little one. it sounds good to me. so when your soul comes back you think it will be mother earth?
"well maybe i will be an aligator dinosour... but i won't hurt anyone. just because i don't want to hurt anyone."
you are so little. and your soul too big for your body to contain... some days it spills out so fiercly and none of us know how to handle the excess.
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how to impart spirituality without religion has been a struggle for us. we pick and choose what fits and snugs. let the mystic movements run their course. but how to pass that on to out brood? th5 is our spirit baby and so in tune with the higher powers. she asks questions out of the blue and draws her own conclusions. and yet i worry that we just aren't exposing her enough. not setting up traditions that will shape their faith.
already she is piecing bits together - and teaching us so much. i remember seeing things as black and white. possible. impossible. i miss that about my faith. yet i'm glad it's gone and able to see the grey as well...
what resposibilty have we taken on - to impart a wisdom greater than our own without crushing (bruising) the true spirit that is embodied in our children. a flimsy quiver rope we walk. this human experience. human and hungry.
a hunger i desire to fill. realizing my job is to listen and step back. nod and admire. respect and withhold my own cynicism. answer the questions but with more wonder and less absolute. learning as we go. living as we grow.
and why not little one - you are young enough that it is still possible. i shall not break that bubble... i will not tell you different.
"mother earth doesn't take things away from us right? ... but maybe mother earth accepts things... like maybe when i die, i'll be mother earth... and i won't steal things. but if some gives me something i will..."
yes little one. it sounds good to me. so when your soul comes back you think it will be mother earth?
"well maybe i will be an aligator dinosour... but i won't hurt anyone. just because i don't want to hurt anyone."
you are so little. and your soul too big for your body to contain... some days it spills out so fiercly and none of us know how to handle the excess.
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how to impart spirituality without religion has been a struggle for us. we pick and choose what fits and snugs. let the mystic movements run their course. but how to pass that on to out brood? th5 is our spirit baby and so in tune with the higher powers. she asks questions out of the blue and draws her own conclusions. and yet i worry that we just aren't exposing her enough. not setting up traditions that will shape their faith.
already she is piecing bits together - and teaching us so much. i remember seeing things as black and white. possible. impossible. i miss that about my faith. yet i'm glad it's gone and able to see the grey as well...
what resposibilty have we taken on - to impart a wisdom greater than our own without crushing (bruising) the true spirit that is embodied in our children. a flimsy quiver rope we walk. this human experience. human and hungry.
a hunger i desire to fill. realizing my job is to listen and step back. nod and admire. respect and withhold my own cynicism. answer the questions but with more wonder and less absolute. learning as we go. living as we grow.
posted by mtnmama at 10:02 PM
3 Comments:
she sounds like a deep thinker....thanks for sharing....
loved your exchange with t5, and you commentry, you both possess a beauty in thought, word and deed.
let the mysterious retain its mystery ...speculation is faith in action. mental mama
wow, i loved reading your thoughts and thinking about Th5's musings:
learning as we go. living as we grow.
i LOVE this about being a parent. our journey is so *rich* because of the little ones' lives we share.
children have such a fresh view of the world. uncomplicated. so forgiving.
the older our kiddos get, and the further along the road i go, i am finding myself giving less black and white "answers" to my kids, and asking more questions.
i guess it's still within the parameters of "christian" thought. way less conservative these days, though.
cos i want my kids to *think* about things, not just accept anything because i do.
i like what my parents told me often: that we would have to find our own spiritual way as we grow.
trusting our children to be found by God.
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